So I am now working on my 3rd year of having this blog. I’m quite impressed with myself, I never stick to anything. Except this.. And maybe the internet in general. And perhaps music.. Maybe art. Okay so I stick to things. ANYWAYS I’m at work and pretty bored and am afraid that the Bursting Bear Gestapo are going to come and attack me. (Internet use on company time?) ANYWAYS, Its a state holiday and I really shouldn’t be here anyways. Nobody else is at work, in FACT nobody is even in my office currently, and I could stand on my desk, sing and dance, and nobody would know any different. Not even the cute boy next door is working today. Don’t worry he has a girlfriend, and I don’t think I’ll be venturing down that avenue (again) anytime soon.. So yeah I’m a little bit psycho today. In other news, my mother and brother graciously bought a new computer so for my buddies that I chat with, I’m back.(Thank God, I was beginning to worry about Kansas.)
So the top thing on my mind (aside from the gigantic mosquito flying around my vacant office) is my cousin. She and I are 6 months apart, and consequently that means that every time something happens to one of us, the other is compared. If one of us does well in school, one of us is better at keeping in touch with family members, the other is judged by their competitor’s (if you will) ability. The funny thing is, the “competition” doesn’t come from my cousin, as much a the rest of the family. Usually I don’t let it get to me, because I think most families are like that, but this past weekend I almost killed somebody. She recently moved out for the first time and has also recently acquired a boyfriend. Which is really awesome and I’m really happy for her. Her apt is really cute, as is her boyfriend and she deserves all the happiness in the world. But I swear, If one more person comes up to me and says “Mallory someday you will get to this point” I am going to start breaking some shins.
It’s like Thank you! I wasn’t sure if I was going to make it as an adult in this world, after all I’m a 21 year old college student living in my mother’s basement, without a man to provide for me. GRRRRRRRRRRRRRR. I know there is nothing wrong with me, but when comments like that are made, it makes me wonder. So if you are one of those who would like to re-assure me that things will “eventually look up” Please remember the following: Professionally I am currently working on my first Bachelors Degree at the University of Utah, I’m a full time student, and a part time employee, and personally, as strange as it sounds, I don’t have time to live on my own. Living at home allows me to eat healthy (if I lived on my own, I would eat out every night and gain a million pounds) live close to a laundry facility, plus I get free cable. Not to mention I adore my little brother and Mom.
As for the absence of a provider, again , I’m a full time student and have a lot going on, not to mention a lot planned for my future, and in all honesty, getting involved in a serious relationship may screw all those plans up, and I’m not sure if I am willing to do that right now. Having said that, I am interested in dating and making friends, and something comes about as a result, that’s great. But for the love of Yaweh, I don’t need a significant other to be a validated as a person. SO THERE.
Anyways, This post is a little long, and a little ranty, which is what I have been trying to avoid doing, but honestly. I’m alright, I just wish people would be concerned at a more warranted time. Say a month or so ago. But whatever. I’m in a better place now because of it. Thanks for listening, and happy Pioneer day. Have a good’un