Doncha wish your girlfriend was hot like me?

Please don’t tell Maynard James Keenan about the title of this blog… If you’re a close friend of mine, I think you’ll understand the reference…

So, the semester is about a week old, and I’ve decided to make some new years resolutions.

1- Get a 4.0 GPA, because really I have no excuse not to
2- Go to the gym at least 3 times a week
3-Complete all assigned readings in my various history courses
4-Be willing to put my name on all assigned projects (because lets face it, some of my work last year was atrocious)
5-Make more friends

I think its a good list. Mostly I don’t want this year to be like last. While I had a blast last year in foundations, I think I wasted a lot of time academically, professionally, financially, physically, and socially. Basically, I want to be a better version of me this year, A better student, a better employee, a responsible adult, and a better, more compassionate friend. I think if I strive to achieve these goals, things will somehow magically fall into place. Anyways just thought you should know that.

In other news, I went to TOOL and I can’t even begin to talk about how amazing it was to see them live again. Its one thing to see a really talented band, its another thing to see a band that inspires you artistically, and still its another thing to see a band who’s music has really helped you during a difficult period of your life (13th step… Yeah yeah its APC I know) so when you get to see one band that is all three, its basically a religious experience. I want my work to look like what their music sounds like. I think before I die, I want to do a series based on various songs that I find inspiring. But that’s for another day I suppose.

Well kiddies, My computer is being a little glitchy, so I’m going to end this before I lose the entire post… But you have a good’un!

BLAH

I GET TO SEE MAYNARD JAMES KEENAN TONIGHT

So… Did you know? TOOL is in town tonight. And that my friends, is exactly what I need right now.

Join in my
Join in my child
and listen …
Digging through
My old numb shadow

My shadow’s
Shedding skin
and I’ve been picking
scabs again.
I’m down digging through
my old muscles
for a clue.
I’ve been crawling on my belly
clearing out what could’ve been.
I’ve been wallowing in my own confused
and insecure delusions
for a piece to cross me over
or a word to guide me in.
I wanna feel the changes coming down.
I wanna know what I’ve been hiding
in (my shadow. 2x)
Change is coming through my shadow.
My shadow’s
shedding skin.
I’ve been picking
my scabs again.

Join in my
Join in my child,
my shadow moves,
closer to me

I’ve been crawling on my belly
clearing out what could’ve been
I’ve been wallowing in my own chaotic,
insecure delusions.
I wanna feel the change consume me,
feel the outside turning in.
I wanna feel the metamorphosis and
cleansing I’ve endured in,
(my shadow. 2x)
Change is coming.
Now is my time.
Listen to my muscle memory.
Contemplate what I’ve been clinging to.
Forty-six and two ahead of me.

I,
choose to live and to,
grow,
take and give and to,
move,
learn and love and to,
cry,
kill and die and to,
be,
paranoid and to,
lie,
hate and fear and to,
do,
what it takes to move through.

I choose to live and to,
lie,
kill and give and to,
die,
learn and love and to,
do,
what it takes to step through.

See my shadow changing,
stretching up and over me
soften this old armor.
Hoping I can clear the way by
stepping through my shadow,
coming out the other side.
Step into the shadow.
Forty six and two
are just ahead of me.

Futures made of virtual insanity

Do you remember Jamiroquai? Because I do. Anyways. School has officially started! So far I have only attended my two art history classes, and I think that taking them both, back to back, in the same classroom, might be a little brutal. But oh well. At least this way I can actually take a photography class, which I start today. I’m really excited about it, I’m hoping to see more of my friends from last year today. Its kind of a bummer, you get to know a lot of different people when you’re in pre-art, but then after that, you hardly ever see them anymore. My boss’ son is starting pre-art this semester and I have to say, a big part of me is jealous. And as weird as it sounds, I really miss drawing class. I KNOW. I am never satisfied. I think I might go wander around the third floor of the art building just to see if I can run into Tom. Even though, yesterday I ran into my former 3-D teacher, and he didn’t remember me. I hate that.

I was actually talking about this with a friend of mine. For some reason, I am ‘blessed’ with the ability to remember a person’s name and face after the first time I meet them. While I guess its cool to recognize people, oftentimes I feel like I am not very memorable. Whatever. I’m just being insecure I guess. Hmm when I started this paragraph, I felt like I had a lot to say on the topic, but I think that’s really about it, how disappointing…

ANYWAYS.. Summer is officially over, and I have to say, I am quite proud of myself. I accomplished quite a bit off of my list, and as of this morning I had lost 24.2 pounds (I’m only short .8 lbs of my 25 lbs goal) which was pretty cool, because I’ve been working my ass off at the gym. Yeah. KUDOS TO ME. For some reason, Talking about my weight on my blog makes me feel exposed and insecure. So I’m done with that too.. What a disappointing post this has turned out to be. What. Ever.

Well Kiddies, I had better get back to work, but You have a terrrrrific day.
Have a good’un

Eastside love is living on the West End

So, the semester starts in two friggin days. TWO DAYS and only one of my teachers has gotten around to disclosing what books they will be using, guess I won’t be getting a half.com discount anytime soon. What. Ever. I don’t have anything in particular to write about… As the summer comes to an end, I find myself really sad to go back to school, because I know come May, I’ll be sad that its summer, Its a vicious cycle you see. Mostly I’m not looking forward to the financial crunch that usually accompanies photography classes… But hopefully with my raise and added hours, it won’t be too bad. I’m still selling my Jetta if anyone’s interested. ANYWAYS…

Mikey and I went to see the Red Hot Chili Peppers last week, and Damn, that was a really good show. I don’t think their music really showcases their talent, but their live shows definitely do. I don’t know if I’ve ever seen anyone play the way they do, it was really cool, and if you get the chance to see them, you won’t be disappointed, I promise. Along with the great music, the crowd was really eclectic, which is always a lot of fun. In particular, the man in front of us really loved the peppers. He knew all the songs, and made up his own special dances for each song, which at the end of each, he would passionately throw up the “hang loose” sign into the air, to remind the peppers that they are in fact, from California. Anyways, they’re great live, I’d put them in the top 10, if not top 5 best played shows I’ve ever seen. I should make a list like that.. It’d be fun.

Friday night, after enjoying a fun picnic in the park with Jessie, Sarah, Marci , and I went to a midnight movie and then to breakfast (Brefuss) at 3 AM. It was an insane night, that re-affirmed my belief that the summer list is the best idea I have ever had. During our outing, we met a crazy man who claimed he was from Scotland, Orange county, Australia, AND Hawaii. He was also autistic, artistic, and enjoyed drinking “Donny Osmonds.” (and this all happened, BEFORE we watched goonies) once the movie started up, he ran away somewhere, and we never saw him again. Perhaps he went surfing with his black dogs. After the movie, we went to Village Inn and enjoyed some 3:00 AM breakfast. There we saw an old customer at the UPS Store, and made a new friend. We knew that we’d be friends the moment he brought Sarah 4 Diet cokes, all at the same time. Truly, a match made in heaven.

Have a good’un

No one’s gonna take me alive

SCHOOL STARTS ONE WEEK FROM TODAY. So desperately did I want last semester to never end, now that same desperation wants the semester to never start. So before I get too involved with this blog, let me warn you, I have a head cold, and its sort of messing up my ability to make clear and concise sentences. Words are my enemy today. So sorry if nothing on this particular post makes sense. I’d also like to apologize for having not posted for almost a month. I’ve been suprisingly busy, trying to finish up the summer list, which it looks like I wont be doing. I’ve also been in the bitchiest mood of all time due to some financial issues that we won’t go into, because yeah its boring. But don’t worry, I’m still single and living at home.

ANYWAYS… I’ve done a lot of really fun things since I last posted. This past weekend was particularly fun. A bunch of us attempted to watch all six Star Wars films, and it was really fun. We only made it through 4, but do you realize that’s over 12 hours of George Lucas dialogue? Damn. We are still deciding when to watch the last two. The night was particularly fun because we all brought themed foods. (I brought wookie cookies) after watching 2 movies, we all slept over at Lisa’s which made me feel like I was 13 again. Jessie, Marci and I got to sleep in the living room, where we told each other ghost stories and made shadow puppets. You know you wish you were there. It was quite possibly the best night of my summer. IF NOT MY LIFE.

Aside from intergalactic happenings, Mikey and I went to the Spiral Jetty a few weeks ago, and that was also really fun. I didn’t realize how far away it actually is, its about 75 miles away and its an adventure getting there. We had to drive on dirt roads, and then do a little bit of four wheeling, which ultimately resulted in mikey needed to replace all 4 brakes.. The Jetty itself is really beautiful, and I was proud of us for being able to find it and then actually hike down the rocky hill to get to it.

Well Kiddies, I think I am going to end this post, but I will try to post more often.
Have a good’un