Was it ever worth it?

So… I’ve sort of been obsessed with this song since like May 1. You should love it. Sorry I always talk about Modest Mouse here… but I just cant emphasize how good they really are…

While we’re on the subject
Could we change the subject now?
I was knocking on your ear’s door but you were always out
Looking towards the future
We were begging for the past
Well we knew we had the good things
But those never seemed to last
Oh please just last

Everyone’s unhappy
Everyone’s ashamed
Well we all just got caught looking
At somebody else’s page
Well nothing ever went
Quite exactly as we planned
Our ideas held no water
But we used them like a damn

Oh, and we carried it all so well
As if we got a new position
Oh, and I laugh all the way to hell
Saying yes, this is a fine promotion
Oh, and I laugh all the way to hell

Of course everyone goes crazy
Over such and such and such
We made ourselves a pillar
We just used it as a crutch
We were certainly uncertain
At least I’m pretty sure I am
Well we didn’t need the water
But we just built that go god damn

Oh, and I know this of myself
I assume as much for other people
Oh, and I know this of myself
We’ve listened more to life’s end gong
Than the sound of life’s sweet bliss

Was it ever worth it?
Was there all that much to gain?
Well we knew we missed the boat
And we’d already missed the plane
We didn’t read the invite
We just dance at our wake
All our favorites were playing
So we could shake, shake, shake, shake, shake

Tiny curtains open and we heard the tiny clap of little hands
A tiny man would tell a little joke and get a tiny laugh from all the folks
Sitting drifting around in bubbles and thinking it was us that carried them
When we finally got it figured out that we had truly missed the boat

Oh, and we carried it all so well
As if we got a new position
Oh, and we owned all the tools ourselves
But not the skills to make a shelf with
Oh, what useless tools ourselves

Knowing that hate is wrong and love is right

Cynthia says:
by the way
Cynthia says:
all your problems you have on your blog
Cynthia says:
guess what?
Cynthia says:
religion can solve it
Cynthia says:
cuz moses is watching you
Cynthia says:
that’s right, moses
Cynthia says:
i basically have just wanted to tell someone that moses was watching them all day long
Mallory says:
well I’m glad to have given you the chance!!
Cynthia says:
but just be careful…of moses
Cynthia says:
cuz he has a beard…and a staff
Cynthia says:
and it turns into a snake
Cynthia says:
ya know?

Where do all the secret’s live?

It’s 12:57 and I am too wired to sleep. I should be working on www.malloryqualls.com but I am so effing sick of working on that website. Also currently irritating me? Misleading career “opportunities” and the song “Dammit” by Blink 182. I used to love that song. However now it’s stuck in my head and won’t get out. Maybe I’ll turn on some mindless pop to wash away whatever left-overs remain in my brain at this hour.

I’ve been thinking about a lot of random things lately. Like… Why does the Olive Garden use grapes as their logo? Why not a picture of olives? Why aren’t they called the vineyard? Also, why did it take SO long for people to realize the world is round? and why did it take SO long for people to develop perspective in art?

Deep questions, I know. Perhaps the most perplexing question I face lately is “Where can I find all the answers to life?” Because msn.com’s horoscopes isn’t cutting it nowadays. And frankly? I’m a little distraught over the whole thing.

I’ve been facing quite a bit of uncertainty these past few months and I’m growing weary. I’m tired of not knowing if and when I’ll ever meet “the one,” whether or not I’m a complete moron for choosing “artist” as my preferred profession, and as always, I feel like I will forever live in my mother’s basement buried under mountains of debt.

Yeah yeah yeah, everyone goes through this, and yes, nobody knows the answers. But Why? How many people have lived on this planet before me? Hell, how many people are currently living on this planet right now? Someone, somewhere has to have the answers. Right? Like there’s gotta be someone out there who knows how to get my sorry ass out of debt, and there’s got to be a way to know whether or not I’m making the right decisions.

If anyone tells me to find these answers through religion I will shoot you.

You’ve been warned.

Have you figured it out? ’cause I haven’t got a clue

Wow.

As I’ve stated in the past, while I have fairly strong political beliefs, I don’t really like to be vocal about them… But this is just ridiculous.

You’ve gotta friend in me

As you probably already know, having close friends takes a lot of work. Having a close group of girlfriends can also be trying at times, because lets face it, sometimes we are catty. I am blessed to have 3 girlfriends whom i get along with seamlessly, however it’s not always easy, and occasionally we talk smack on each other.

Sarah says:
MARCI LOOKS EFFING ADORABLE.
Sarah says:
UGH
Mallory says:
OF COURSE SHE DOES
Mallory says:
shes Marci?
Sarah says:
I know.
Sarah says:
It’s so annoying.
Sarah says:
ANNOYINGLY ADORABLE
Sarah says:
She could at least warn me.
Sarah says:
Like “Sarah, just fyi, I’m going to look perfect every day this week, so you might want to sack up.”

Sorry we gossiped about you Maac.

Not Quite Conversation, Somewhere In Between

Oh. My. Gosh.

Do you live in Utah? Because a lot of really good bands are coming over the next little while. Including but not limited to: Incubus, Reel Big Fish, Ben Kweller, THE SMASHING PUMPKINS, Rise Against, Suburban Legends, The Fray, Eisley, The White Stripes, and more.

My life is so awesome right now.

Your time is now

My friend is putting this together and I will be submitting work for the auction. Please attend and spread the word!

The simmmmmspsons

That? is AWESOME.

Like a rickshaw getting pulled around by another rickshaw

Things that are currently bothering me:

-I have no new email.
-I keep shamelessly looking at my phone in hopes of receiving a text message, voicemail, etc etc. Am I expecting a call? no. Does anyone have a reason to call me? Not to my knowledge. Apparently I am STILL some sort of attention whore.
-Both of my shrugs need attention… One needs a snap sewn back on, and one needs a button attached. (Please note I bought said button 2 months ago and it just sits here at my computer desk, staring me in the face.)Why is this important you ask?
-I have Grandma arms. And not the kind filled with love.
-I STILL haven’t finished reading Hocus Pocus
-I need to hand wash a bunch of stuff
-Hard water spots on my windshield

Okay I think that’s about it. Stay tuned for a real blog not involving lists!